Hot Mess Express

From my hair to the dishes

And the pantry to my stress

I’m just one sad disorderly

Mess of gorgeous chaos

Here for no one to understand

Let’s Go Girls

To the women making a house a home and only communicating with tiny humans

To the women running the board room and leading executive meetings

To the women who feel like they’re never enough

To the women who feel powerful af

To the moms, wives, sisters, cousins, aunts, grandmothers, friends, girlfriends, daughters, and every other a woman could have

To the women who don’t feel seen or heard

To the women who have to fight for their place

To the women who live viciously independent

To the women that need their tribe

To the women who have crawled through the glass to find a seat at the table

To the women who are truly girl’s girls and fix each other’s crowns

To the women cheering on the other women and crying with them too

To the women who’ve been shut down, ignored, abused, and used

To the women that have risen above it all despite not having it all

To the women who continue to fight for our rights (not just to party without being raped)

To the women of every race, ethnicity, background, and economic class

To the women who feel forced to continue to smile through it all

Cheers to you, you beautiful goddesses

This earth would never exist without your magic

Happy International Women’s Day

She’s Washed Out to Sea

This world is so dark

Too much negativity

Like a lingering storm cloud

Hanging over head

Watching

Waiting for the exact moment

To let loose the storm of chaos

I’m alone through this storm

With no umbrella, no rain coat and wet, soggy socks

No protection from the elements

Me against everything

Even me versus me

I’m so fatigued

I’ve not got much fight left in me

How do I continue pushing on

The harsh winds in my face

Chap my lips and push me back

My hopes of light and warmth

Have faded like an old timey lamp

One that’s lost its fuel

One that’s lost its wick

One found in the bottom of a shipwreck

In the darkness

I find myself again

Searching for a flashlight

Searching for a lifeboat

Drowning in my emotions

I am not the Siren I long to be

I am nothing but a land walking human

Filled with these thoughts

And with lungs for air

But even my lungs fail me

Leave me gasping for air

My chest tightens around them

As I sink further into the depths

The depths of my sadness

The detrimental typhoon

Of who I used to be

And where is she?

Will she once again ever be me?

Hold Down the Fort

I’ll get as close as you let me

I’m eager to be let in

But the walls you’ve built

Are so very high

As tall as the Burj Khalifa

And I am not an alpinist

I do not know what you need from me

To help with the fall of your Berlin Wall

But I’d take all the stones

That have ever been thrown

To help you build a new foundation

We’ll lay them brick by brick

Make it rock solid

And create our own fortress

Made just for us to stay safely in

Full Hunter’s Moon in Taurus

This rotation brought me lots of thoughts of you

I can see that you also felt it too

It’s funny

This silly little game the universe plays

Emotions rise and set like the cycles of the moon

What can I do to make you stay?

Leave another day.

Shield-Maiden

No one will understand the pain it took

To become this powerful

No one will understand the rage I’ve felt

To become this peaceful

No one will understand the desperation I’ve endured

To become this content

No one will understand the violence it took

To become this gentle

Where’s Rebekah?

Cause who even knows

She’s lost in the night

The afterlife is closer than this desolate life

She’s like a ghost of a better time

Hidden in the darkness

The night feels safe

It helps conceal the tears

Pouring from her eyes

Kisses in the light feel misleading

If you miss her

Change it, fix it

Don’t say goodbye

If you leave, we leave

We’ll go out together

Solar Eclipse New Moon in Libra

Prioritize yourself with your intentions this cycle

Reevaluate where and with whom you invest your energy

Use this energy to figure out who brings value to you

Listen to your need for balance and harmony

As the energy is drawn in, connect with your deeper truth

Stand in your light

Be assertive about your needs

Thus continuing your path of greater peace

And ultimate self-acceptance

Infinity Times Infinity

Everlasting perfection

The Sea and the Sky

Fine Art in Modern Times

Little Tramp thirst traps

Social media sins

Guilty pleasures

Hidden agendas in plain view

Eu e você

No Church in the Wild

Look up into the trees

The way the wind blows their branches

How each season reflects change in their leaves

How majestic and beautiful they are

Providers of oxygen and shade

Fruit bearers and nut creators

I can’t explain the healing I receive

From losing myself in the woods

It’s one of my favorite places to be

A forest with the cool stream

Sit along the bank and enjoy the breeze

Inhaling tree with the trees

Feel the sun kiss my cheeks from between the canopy

There’s no better place to just breathe

The forest calls out my name

Especially when my soul needs a reset

Ground with nature

Reconnect with Gaia

Find peace again

Dendrophile dreams

Hot Air for a Cool Breeze

Is there a word that’s powerful enough

To truly explain the physical pain

From missing someone so much?

The ache that lives within my belly

And stabs my heart…

Whenever I think of you.

It’s unbearable

And yet,

I’ve learned to live with it

Every single day.

Cry Baby

I cry

A lot

From happiness

From frustration

From sadness

From rage

From pain

There are more days that I cry

Than there are days that I don’t

Maybe it’s my inner child

Just trying to finally heal

Why is crying an act to shame?

Especially a child?

“Stop the water works”

“You’re so sensitive”

“What’s wrong with you?!”

“Oh, great. Here come the tears again”

“Cry baby”

My cheeks have felt a billion tears

I’ve cried big, gut-wrenching cries

The kind that make you feel like you’ll never breathe again

The kind that make my eyes so bloodshot

Where the red accents the blue into the most beautiful hue

I’ve cried silently in the dark

Hoping not to wake anyone

I’ve cried in public, in work meetings

And in the bathroom stall

I’ve cried during cute commercials

And every time I go to the theater

I’ve cried listening to music or poetry

The arts that are there to make you really FEEL something

I’ll cry when the thoughts in my own head have hurt my feelings

And when the world feels too heavy

I cry often watching my son

Holding my son

Just thinking about my son

And realizing that I’ll never have some of those moments again

The tears can come from guilt

They can come from overwhelming joy

They can come at any moment

One thing about me is I’m going to cry

And I will no longer feel shame

Or try to conceal it

For each teardrop that falls

Is strength in owning my intensity